Finding Myself
Been a depressing day - I wonder to myself if I've even grown up and 'found myself' yet. I behave in ways i wouldn't normally (or,would i?) and i react to external circumstances sometimes uncontrollably. Sometimes i'm disappointed with my own behaviour and even wonder - where is God in all this? - isn't He supposed to be king of my life? So why am i not living a godly life even though i know i should be? Guess that's why i'm depressed today - screw me, Lord, i suck.
Got very mad with our shipping company today. Our stuff arrived in Auckland more than a week ago but they were unable to deliver it cos my mum's curry powder didn't clear the customs. (silly farmers) Anyways - we travelled across half Auckland to settle the customs stuff at the shipping company only for them to tell us that the customs was cleared in the morning and our barang barang will be delivered tomorrow. Good news? Or am i entitled to be pissed off at the fact that they didn't tell us that we didn't have to drive half an hour there, and wait half an hour for them to tell us that we didn't have to be there? Morons. Vijay - that's you. Well i know that much about myself - that i expect professionalism when i pay for it. I guess it's something i picked up from the army - to be intolerant of unprofessionalism. Probably something i should try to change, especially amongst fellow saved sinners. My music team would probably agree.
Had a good chat with 2 Welsh buddies just now, Tred and Al... really miss them and hope they'll come visit me in the near future.
Anyways, guys if you're reading this - please pray that i will try with all my being to be more godly. Somehow godliness seems no more present in my life than cleanliness... heh.
On a chirpier note - uni offer of place should be in soon and i should be starting uni as a local student... at Auckland Uni of Technology. I'm doing Communications Studies.
Cheers everyone for your emails so far - they've been a joy to read. Let's keep in touch - will try my best to keep up my replies through the uni year.
Marker? How you doing - haven't heard from you mate.
See yáll..
Got very mad with our shipping company today. Our stuff arrived in Auckland more than a week ago but they were unable to deliver it cos my mum's curry powder didn't clear the customs. (silly farmers) Anyways - we travelled across half Auckland to settle the customs stuff at the shipping company only for them to tell us that the customs was cleared in the morning and our barang barang will be delivered tomorrow. Good news? Or am i entitled to be pissed off at the fact that they didn't tell us that we didn't have to drive half an hour there, and wait half an hour for them to tell us that we didn't have to be there? Morons. Vijay - that's you. Well i know that much about myself - that i expect professionalism when i pay for it. I guess it's something i picked up from the army - to be intolerant of unprofessionalism. Probably something i should try to change, especially amongst fellow saved sinners. My music team would probably agree.
Had a good chat with 2 Welsh buddies just now, Tred and Al... really miss them and hope they'll come visit me in the near future.
Anyways, guys if you're reading this - please pray that i will try with all my being to be more godly. Somehow godliness seems no more present in my life than cleanliness... heh.
On a chirpier note - uni offer of place should be in soon and i should be starting uni as a local student... at Auckland Uni of Technology. I'm doing Communications Studies.
Cheers everyone for your emails so far - they've been a joy to read. Let's keep in touch - will try my best to keep up my replies through the uni year.
Marker? How you doing - haven't heard from you mate.
See yáll..
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